Like everyone else, I’ve had some emotionally tough days in my life. I thought my father’s funeral was amongst the toughest of my life, but at least it was “knowable”. He was gone, but the process was generally clear. You bury the dead, you grieve, you adapt, you learn to carry on. But my worst day for emotional pain was March 20, 2009, and in retrospect, mainly because of the uncertainty and the stakes.
Early morning panic
For most parents-to-be, water-breaking is a joyous occasion — it’s time! The baby is coming! Nervousness, the drive to the hospital, the decisions about how soon to go, how long to wait. All that you’ve planned for, anticipated; all that you didn’t expect, but are excited about; and all that you’re just nervous about.
That feeling of excitement is not present when the water breaks at 26 weeks, 5 days. You don’t know the exact odds, but you know your baby is in danger, something’s wrong. » Read the rest