Well, my first attempt with transparent commitment, public goals, everything arrayed to push me led initially to weight loss of about 30 pounds, and then regained about 15 of it. Strike one.
My second attempt, my “reboot” this year, was wiped out by depression and I ended up not only regaining all of the other 15 pounds I had first lost, but I also added another 5 on top of it. Pushing me to my largest weight ever, 345 pounds. Strike two.
So I’m working on a reboot plan, I know why it’s not working, and what I need to do, but apparently the online transparency plan isn’t working for me as a way of keeping my nose to the grindstone. I have a couple of new things to try, but I guess I’ll try those out on my own and post updates more sporadically. Stay tuned!
When last we saw our intrepid hero (i.e. me), he was facing a cliff-hanger of epic proportions (literally). He had plateaued, become relatively inert, started to despair, and wallowed in frustration. I needed a break. So I took one.
My “goal” for my break was to take my mental energy off my weight and health, and while I wasn’t planning to abandon all my new practices, I didn’t want to be tracking everything every day, only to see no progress. I stopped in early February, and planned to go to the end of March. That was this past Sunday.
So what did I do over the previous seven weeks?
On the positive side, I didn’t go completely crazy. I didn’t throw away my plans to eat breakfast more regularly, although I didn’t try to fight that hard to make it at home either. For snacks, I gave myself a break from preparing them by taking a financial hit, and so I bought my veggies at work more often than pre-chopping them at home. » Read the rest
Two weeks ago, I was on my way to work after a quick appointment in the morning, nothing special, mostly administrative. I got to work, parked the car in the lower underground lot, grabbed my bag from the trunk, and started off up the stairs. Four half-flights up the stairs, I’m on the lowest level of the building and I notice as I’m getting close to the elevator that my chest is hurting a bit.
I hesitated to call it chest pain, because it was more like indigestion, centred right on my sternum and unusual. I don’t normally have anything like that. Hmm…got up to my desk, sat down, did some stuff, it went away. I had been having some challenges with my back the previous few weeks, and I knew I had at least a rib or two out, so maybe it was just positional I thought. No big deal, I guess, it went away. » Read the rest
If you’ve read my blog in recent weeks, you’ll have noticed a trend. Lack of movement. Increasing despair. Frustration. Wallowing.
I am struggling to keep with my program, and to get ANY momentum at all, ranging even from eating healthier with my snacking and breakfast times all the way through to actual being ready for exercise. I’ve been trying various things to “re-energize” my approach but most of it is frankly just not working.
So today marks my last post on this topic until Spring hits. I’m just focusing too much on negative sides of what I’m not accomplishing that it is starting to affect my overall mood and emotions. I’m taking a break. No, I’m not stopping, no, I’m not giving up. But I had to let go of the constant tension and I did that today.
I desperately wanted a quick comfort boost and my normal outlets — a creamy hot chocolate or an actual frozen hot chocolate from Timothy’s — were not getting the job done. » Read the rest
While I should be doing a full update for measurements and everything, I’m really not feeling it at the moment. And so I didn’t do an update on Wednesday. But someone asked after a previous post if I was going to post about what I was using for resources — websites, apps, etc. — and I wrote this up last weekend, so if anything might jive for others, I might as well share.
I tried out a bunch of apps, and very few resonated with me. I tried weight trackers, nutrition ones, stuff about exercise, and a raft of others. In the end, I’m only happy with four of them, and right now, I’m almost down to using only two for two specific elements.
The first area is almost unrelated — I like to jumpstart my brain with some puzzles in the morning. Not “physical health”, more “cognitive health”, I guess. » Read the rest