If you’ve read my blog in recent weeks, you’ll have noticed a trend. Lack of movement. Increasing despair. Frustration. Wallowing.
I am struggling to keep with my program, and to get ANY momentum at all, ranging even from eating healthier with my snacking and breakfast times all the way through to actual being ready for exercise. I’ve been trying various things to “re-energize” my approach but most of it is frankly just not working.
So today marks my last post on this topic until Spring hits. I’m just focusing too much on negative sides of what I’m not accomplishing that it is starting to affect my overall mood and emotions. I’m taking a break. No, I’m not stopping, no, I’m not giving up. But I had to let go of the constant tension and I did that today.
I desperately wanted a quick comfort boost and my normal outlets — a creamy hot chocolate or an actual frozen hot chocolate from Timothy’s — were not getting the job done. So I gave in to what my body was telling me.
I had ice cream at Laura Secord.
If you have read the previous blogs, you know how I feel about it. Tantamount to falling off the wagon for AA members and taking a drink. Attempt #1 is complete and I’ve failed to achieve my goal. I did make some progress, there’s positive in them there hills, but a failure nevertheless.
I’ll try to minimize the backsliding over the next two months. I may even make some more progress in there. But for now, I’m done blogging about it until at least April 15th. I need some quick wins on other fronts to get my confidence back up.
Not the posts I thought I would be writing about now, but it is what it is, I guess. Sigh.